PLEASURE GAMES

in the beginning

she did not describe herself

just looking cute like a rare flower

with a side of trouble

She gives you a hint

without even trying to

you found it

now you want to be involved

in the dangerous game she created

you feel scared

to get into deep water

because the rules ahead was chaotic

but you already swore to her

under the red crescent moon

you kept her safe under the stars

you kept her away from dusty days

she gets bored

you seem boring

she ended the game as guilty pleasure

Wisconsin, 1/16/2026

KASIH BIRU

kemana pergimu

kasih biru nan rupawan

sembunyi saja selama itu

seperti putri malu di padang rumput

namun diam-diam menginginkanku

kenapa diam saja

setiap kali aku menampakkan diri

membisu saja selama itu

seperti angin musim gugur

namun diam-diam mencariku

pernahkah kau membayangkan

jika aku melucuti hatimu

dan meraba kekar jiwamu

hanya dengan tatapanku

matamu tajam menusuk jantungku

bibirmu menghangati hasratku

nafasmu memburuku bak srigala liar

kau tahu bagaimana selanjutnya

kau cinta biruku

aku merindumu, jika kau mau

kau cinta mudaku

menjauhlah, aku membiarkanmu

Wisconsin. sun, Mar 22

PERBEDAAN

Oh my baby girl

I want to be with you

indah terdengar bagiku kalimat itu

namun kutukan bagi yang lain

jahanam!

malaikat selalu jadi santapan iblis

siapa pencetusnya

cari tahu disana

luka hatiku terbuka lagi

sesal nadiku terungkit lagi

tak bisa berbuat apapun

tak ada jawaban sekatapun

jalan hidup membentengi tindakan

tradisi membatasi kasih sayang

warna memecah kesatuan

status merusak hakekat cinta

you are my baby

I will always remember you

dan tak ada lagi pertemuan 

ikatan putus menyakiti dua jiwa

Wisconsin, 4/12/2026